Do you ever get the feeling you're living in an alternate world, where the one you thought you occupied kept moving straight ahead and you took a left turn down some back alley leading to who-knows-where?
Today was a weird day. I woke up to find a sig alert on my route to work, the cause of which involved some wild horses and several cars. It didn't end well for a driver and some of the horses. So, at 6:10 this morning, I jumped in the shower fully expecting to be hours on the road. I could feel the muscles in my neck and jaw tightening. Although I was only delayed about five minutes, throughout the day I couldn't shake the tension, and my students didn't help to ease it.
Sometimes, you set expectations for yourself about how a certain day or event will go. The planning you put into it manifests itself the way you intended, but you still feel ill at-ease because of some ambient factor for which you had not accounted: an interaction, an awkward statement or moment, or a strange look on a face. Those are the moments when you feel like a stranger in your own land, when what you thought of as a safe, comfortable setting suddenly turns prickly and you feel unwelcome.
That has been my day.
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